Thank God. Amazing! Growing up as the sixth of seven children in Balikpapan, 9th August 1974 before the trafic jams and the factories. My brothers, sisters and I were expressive children, living in a house with a big yard. It was like Little House on the Prairie. (a movie in 1980)
Frankly, I am a lover of life. Unafraid and … happy, because I have gone through my strength of mind. I am sad when… people I love are sad., like my parents, my hubby and beloved children of mine. I’m sadder than they are and… when people judge us but we don’t have a chance to answer them. But then, whatever they told.
My best traits are… I am a hard worker, forgiving and I accept all things sincerely. However, my worst is that I am hard headed. I only realize it when I have fallen down. Yet, I say sorry to my Almighty god. Further, the talent I wish I had is to paint and to play a musical instrument especially the bass. I love the paintings of Affandi and Raden Saleh. I took lessons but I had to acknowledge that like singing, I just don’t have the talent.(laughs)
Through love of my life, I am trying to live without any fear. A broken heart is nothing compared to the worry when our parents are sick and we wake up everyday wondering what will happen to them. At the end of this diary, I want to die without causing bother to anyone. I definitely hope people will remember the good things about me.
