Senin, 19 Maret 2012

My Life was...

Thank God. Amazing! Growing up as the sixth of seven children in Balikpapan, 9th August 1974 before the trafic jams and the factories. My brothers, sisters and I were expressive children, living in a house with a big yard. It was like Little House on the Prairie. (a movie in 1980)

Frankly, I am a lover of life. Unafraid and … happy, because I have gone through my strength of mind. I am sad when… people I love are sad., like my parents, my hubby and beloved children of mine. I’m sadder than they are and… when people judge us but we don’t have a chance to answer them. But then, whatever they told.

My best traits are… I am a hard worker, forgiving and I accept all things sincerely. However, my worst is that I am hard headed. I only realize it when I have fallen down. Yet, I say sorry to my Almighty god. Further, the talent I wish I had is to paint and to play a musical instrument especially the bass. I love the paintings of Affandi and Raden Saleh. I took lessons but I had to acknowledge that like singing, I just don’t have the talent.(laughs)

Through love of my life, I am trying to live without any fear. A broken heart is nothing compared to the worry when our parents are sick and we wake up everyday wondering what will happen to them. At the end of this diary, I want to die without causing bother to anyone. I definitely hope people will remember the good things about me.